overlapping

I am thankful, grateful for my life today. It is shaped and influenced by all that has happened, good and easy and not so good and easy and fueled by the hopes and promises that lie ahead and while I do remember things from the past I do not tend to dwell on them and so it always take me by surprise when simple things take my breath away as present choices momentarily, vividly catapult me into days that are behind me...

like walking away from the Grayson Sports Complex last night after watching a men's softball game and the end of a little league game suddenly aware I was walking by myself after watching friends and their kids play which I enjoy doing, but  feeling like I should be reaching to hold my husband's hand after watching him and my boys play...

like turning away from the mailbox with two pieces of mail in my hand this morning, neither one of them addressed to me and still hesitating to open or toss this mail...

eight years of experiencing the past and present overlapping

I keep thinking the time will come when I won't be ambushed anymore

this is not that time