it's that season again

life is a series of changing seasons

we've left winter and are finally past flirting with spring

next will come summer, then fall/autumn, and winter, followed by spring again

while it isn't always linear or predictable 

meaning there is often overlap and can feel like one step forward and two backward

there is a consistent pattern of passing from one season into the next

right now I am in a teary season without a specific, known cause

it doesn't seem to matter what is or is not going on

whether I am alone or with people

the cause is not that I am continually sad,

nor am I angry or frustrated

it can be frustrating

it can be aggravating

it can be embarrassing

Sunday I knew they were tears of adjusting to being alone after family time

Monday they came out of nowhere

Tuesday evening a visit with friends I haven't seen in over a year triggered them

Tuesday night I was in the sunscreen aisle at Walmart

my neighbor called to give me some information I needed to help me be safe

tears dripped down my face and choked me as I said "thank you for caring"

my last two Wednesday morning meetings have included a few out of nowhere 

past experience has taught me some valuable lessons

I can't "fix" this

I can't wish it away

tears are not my enemy nor are they a sign of weakness

this will pass, and will , in time, return 

I've gotten lax at keeping pocket packs of kleenex close-

that oversight will be corrected ASAP