ahhh, that's better

  

it was such a mess,

my front flower bed,
the one everyone can see

the one that accused me of neglect everytime I looked at it

and shouted "this is how much she cares" to passersby

at least in my mind

though in reality people probably never give it a second thought

today I set aside time and grit

and chose to work in that bed

I uncovered two crocus that didn't get noticed in their prime,

the weeds and debris covered them,

but interestingly enough,

didn't smother them or prevent them from blooming

I think there's a lesson there...

  

at one point

I discovered promise of blooms to come, 

and a crocus just beginning to open

by the time I was finished, 

I had piles of stuff that needed to be picked up

but I was done in

so I called for help that was gladly given

at one time all five of my beds would have been cleaned in one day

but I recognize my current limits

I cannot do that and still be able to move

so rather than focusing on what is undone,

I am choosing to be thankful for the area I could clean up 

I am also thanking God for friends who are willing to help

I am even considering enlisting some of them to finish the job

today I got a little bit of dirt under my fingernails

while a gentle breeze blew

and the sun shined on my back

which equals a whole lot of soul healing therapy 

I also got a scolding for not asking for help with the whole process

dear friend I want to encourage you:

if you are in a new stage,

and life circumstances have placed limitations on you,

don't get bogged down in comparing what you could do

to what you are able to do now

because doing so will immobilize you

make a reasonable assessment and then do what you can