life reminder courtesy of a two year old

Mia had an early doctor's appointment 
so Xavier and I spent the morning together
after lunch Ruth was taking him and Mia home so they could walk
I was watching the Reinhart funeral on-line
"ba-ma come with us momma?"
"you'll have to ask her"
"ba-ma, you come walk with me?"


He and I had already walked to and from chapel
I was porch swinging in the sun, watching a funeral and tears were falling 
"ba-ma...you come with me, please?"
"I don't think so, grandma is going to stay here and..."
"ba-ma, please, you come with me and walk?"
"not this time..."
and suddenly I heard what I was saying

no?

what in the world was I thinking?
why?
why would I choose to sit and watch a funeral
when this sweet little guy was inviting me share life with him
I closed my computer, knowing that funeral wasn't going anywhere
I tightened my shoelaces, stood and went with my grandson
engaging in life with loved ones is always the best choice

it is not always the easiest or most convenient choice, 
but experience has taught me it is always the best choice,
the only one that never causes regrets