I Surrender

Sometimes I am afraid-
afraid I will forget;
afraid I will never forget.

Sometimes I am fearful-
fearful I will get "it" wrong;
fearful I will not even try.

Sometimes I am weary-
weary of the everyday chores;
weary of the unexpected issues.

Sometimes I am stressed-
stressed from hard things;
stressed from good things.

Sometimes I am tired-
tired of "things" changing;
tired of "things" being the same.

Sometimes I want to scream-
scream "I hate this";
scream "Thank you God for this."

Sometimes I want to hold on-
hold on to the way it has always been done;
hold on as new opportunities are presented.

Sometimes I surrender. 

I Surrender All

lyrics by Judson W. Van DeVenter 1896

All to Jesus I surrender;

1. All to Him I freely give;
   I will ever love and trust Him,
   In His presence daily live.
   • Refrain:
     I surrender all,
     I surrender all;
     All to Thee, my blessed Savior,
     I surrender all.
2. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Humbly at His feet I bow,
   Worldly pleasures all forsaken;
   Take me, Jesus, take me now.
3. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Make me, Savior, wholly Thine;
   Let me feel the Holy Spirit,
   Truly know that Thou art mine.
4. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Lord, I give myself to Thee;
   Fill me with Thy love and power;
   Let Thy blessing fall on me.
5. All to Jesus I surrender;
   Now I feel the sacred flame.
   Oh, the joy of full salvation!
   Glory, glory, to His Name!
   
   
   

   I am finding that as time passes, 
   more often than not

   I actually give up-

   give up my fears;

   give up my burdens;

   give up my expectations;

   give up needing to figure it out.

   I find myself more naturally

   Obeying. Trusting. Learning. Resting.

   These times make me want to give up more.

   
   

   "Come to Me, all who labor and are heavy laden, 
   and I will give you rest. 
   Take my yoke upon you, and learn from Me, 
   for I am gentle and lowly in heart, 
   and you will find rest for your souls. 
   For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.”
   Matthew 11:28-30