when

When 

you walk into a department store, pass the men's section and think-

"he would like that" or "he would look good in that"

and realize 

that isn't valid anymore.

When

you move furniture around and wonder if he will trip over it

because it is in a different place-

and realize

he will never trip over anything again.

When 

you are trimming and weeding and pruning,

leaving the debris where it falls because he always cleans it up 

and realize

he isn't here to pick it up.

When 

you are in the middle of an all day project,

get hungry and think "he will be happy to make a Taco Bell run"

and realize

if you want Taco Bell you are going to have to go get it yourself.

When 

you are unsettled or hurt or feel desperate and pray

"God, I need something and I am not even sure what it is."

and He sends what lavishly fills the need 

and you realize, 

without a doubt,

you are loved beyond anything you could imagine.