Sometimes I lie
For me, being asked "How are you doing?" is a loaded question.
If I hesitate when you ask, I am trying to discern:
"Are you asking because it is a social nicety, a simple greeting?"
or, "Do you want to know how I really am?"
and especially, "Do I want you to know how I am?"
Right or wrong,
the motivation I sense behind the inquiry
often influences the way I answer the question.
Sometimes I lie.
Is lie is too harsh a word?
A social nicety inquiry requires a different answer
than the question from someone who just wants to be "informed".
For me to be honest when I answer the question,
"How are you doing?"
sometimes requires more time, more energy and more effort
than I judge either of us have to give.
In an effort to protect us both, sometimes I don't answer completely.
I don't know if that makes me a liar or not.
If it does,
I will repent later
because for right now,
this is the best I can do.
Uh-huh, sister. My heart is with you there. "Tell it to Jesus alone" is a song that I've sung all my life, but have only recently come to truly comprehend. Wounded and heavy-laden warriors to the left and to the right can barely carry their own selves along let alone help us with ours. But one day, one day...One day He's coming, O Glorious Day! I'll be proud to stand beside you in the ranks approaching the judgement throne. Because I know you will overcome. He holds us when we lack strength to hold anything. And when they ask us there in heaven, "How are you?" Just imagine our reply. Love you, sister!
ReplyDelete"This world is not my home, I'm just a passin' through. My treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue! " Love you too Lisa.
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