in the waiting

March 22, 2022

in the waiting

wait definitely qualifies as a four letter word in my book

it isn't a "dirty" word,

but it is one that makes me cringe when I hear it-

especially when I think it is time for action...

and I am in a time of waiting

today I realized something valuable:

there are things, in this waiting, that I am learning more deeply

for example:

the rewards of trusting

the necessity of unseen work

the discipline of long obedience

the value of doing what comes next, even if it is resting

the peace that comes with knowing and accepting that no season lasts forever

the joy and contentment that come when I celebrate the beauty of the season I'm in

is waiting easy?

sometimes,

but most often, no

is waiting worth it?

experience assures me,

time and time again and again, it most definitely is

*tonight's thoughts inspired by watching the journey of my lilacs

The last six months have been full of waiting, sometimes patiently, often not so patiently, because I wanted to move forward aggressively to figure out what my back issues are. There is no rushing the process. There are steps that have to be taken, between each step there is a time of waiting. All signs pointed that we were in the clear with a plan to finally move forward toward a probable solution 6 weeks ago. An unexpected "storm" necessitated a change of plans. More waiting. And in this waiting, even when I don't like the circumstances, I keep reminding myself that God knows what is going on. He knew every single thing that has happened before it came to pass. He knows what lies ahead. It isn't the time or place for my waiting to end yet.

Coming out of this winter I have been very intentional the last few weeks about watching for this bush to begin to show signs of new growth. The waiting is over. The progression is visible daily. I know it won't always be this apparent, but this last 12 days have been extraordinarily encouraging to me.