Tired of Adult-ing

I have known since Sunday what I need to do this weekend.
I have wanted to do what I plan to do for awhile.
I have been looking forward to this.
Until late this afternoon.
Fear.
Doubt.
Anxiety.
Weariness.
Have all decided to raise their mean, ugly heads.

Tonight,
tonight I am tired of adult-ing.
I simply don't want to.
But I will.
I could change my plans.
But I won't.
Because I have sensed the Lord's nudging to do "this thing".

I have already called on some of my prayer warriors.
Tonight I will finish the jobs I need to get done here.
Tomorrow morning I will have my time with the Lord,
I will shower and put on my "big girl panties"
and then I will do this whether I feel like it or not.

I know without a doubt that God will give me what I need.
I don't understand His timing, 
but I don't have to understand to obey.

I will choose to walk by faith, trusting the One who does not fail.