when your "go-to" person is gone

consultation
forgotten names
reminder of important dates

should I do this,
or this,
or nothing?

seeing a face and
trying to remember a name
and thinking "Bill would know" 

something is on that date
but I can't find any communication
and I didn't make a note of it when I first found out

when your "go-to" person
is gone,
who do you "go-to"

slowly, 
but surely, 
I am learning to live "on my own"

trusting my decisions
admitting I have forgotten
making better use of my calendar

a responsible, 
independent adult,
I guess I will grow into the role