change

change-

I know and accept that it is part of living

we are all changing,

every single day

reaching and growing toward full life or death

I want to be a good steward of opportunities to live a full life

so for years I have prided myself on being flexible,

not necessarily physically,

but definitely mentally and emotionally-

able to "roll with the punches"

ready to try new things

not afraid of "different"

confidently walking, even when I could not see

eager for whatever comes next

slowly, age and injury have taken their toll on this frame of mine

physical flexibility definitely became more dream than reality

my mental and emotional bravado has faltered

and change began to be more bothersome, 

sometimes even menacing 

several years ago a friend invited me to join her in a new discipline

"pray and ask God for a "word" for the new year, 

then hold on and see what He does" were her instructions

I prayed and waited

listened and watched

trust

love

hope

joy

peace

those are words I have in recent years had impressed on my heart

ones I have seen Him plant and grow into reality in my life

I have been praying for this year's word

and what He keeps impressing on me is "change" 

I sense this is not to be the normal day to day definition

I think it is something far bigger than that

and it stirs my soul

excitedly

fearfully

hesitantly

expectantly

boldly trusting

I choose to embrace it

and sit in wonder about what 2019 holds