memories
Funny thing about memories...sometimes it takes something physical to jog them out of the recesses of my mind.
This afternoon I returned the boxes that survived the original purge to the attic.
As I went through the cards I found a set that was nested. The top one said "Congratulations on Your New Baby". I quickly opened it to see which child it was celebrating and was confused because the second card said "Sorry for your loss." It took me a minute to realize that this was a very special group of cards- it was the set that celebrated the conception of our last child and mourned our loss when the pregnancy ended. I had forgotten how many people rejoiced with us when we found out we were expecting and how many more grieved with us when I miscarried.
I cried then and I am crying now. I am also thanking God for creating a new memory that reassures me that the baby we never got to hold was real and other people loved it too. I needed that today. It reminds me that God sees our hidden hurts, He cares and He is able to comfort us. Sometimes that is hard for me to remember.
I am praying that God takes a hurt in your life and creates a good memory for you too.
i was there during that time and I remember the rejoicing we had together and how amazing and how happy I was to be a part of that and how heart broken I was when the baby passed and I was just so sadden and confused by that and how amazingly strong you were thru all of that. I have to say that God used my son in the same way the pain and hurt is still a miracle of how wonderful God is. I miss my son
ReplyDeleteI love you. I remeber your reactions- you shared equally with me in the joy and the pain. I am with you sister-I love and miss our babies.
ReplyDeleteAll the things in this world to share and it had to be this ugh I feel empty most of the time Love u 2 moymma d
ReplyDeleteit gives us softer hearts for others who have suffered loss.
ReplyDeleteyes it does :(
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