happy birthday tears

Christmas 1980


some days I miss Bill so much 
that there are not enough words to explain it fully
today, celebrating the birth of our firstborn, 
Elizabeth and Sarah,
is one of those days 

I am not so much sad 
as my heart physically hurts 
grief feels like an elephant sitting on my chest
I am weary of crying
my eyes feel full of sand and have leaked all day
and my nose, 
though it has trickled,
is "crying stuffy"
and my head pounds

yet, 
somehow, 
my spirit is at peace 
and I find myself singing
"It is well, it is well with my soul"

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