loneliness

God is enough.

I believe that.

I experience that daily.

Yet, 

honestly, 

there are times I experience loneliness 

that cannot be taken away or lifted,

no matter how many people are around.

Even in a room full of people I love, 

a room full of people who love me,

the loneliness lurks-

because the person I am lonely for 

has been taken away.

God is my strength and my comfort,

and He fills me in a way no one else does.

But I would be lying if I said I am never lonely for Bill.

This new reality is surreal-

I know Bill isn't coming home to me, 

he is already home in heaven.

But in some ways I still expect to see him walk toward me-

like he did here, when he returned from his visit to Salekhard.

The next time I see him, we will both be with Jesus.

Oh what a glorious day that will be!