buddies

the night before Deborah and family were flying back to Russia

I was doing some mending at the sewing machine

somehow, as I pushed away from the machine on my rolling chair 

my toes got bent under as I stood up

it hurt so bad I almost went down 

within minutes the middle toe on my left foot was turning red

I knew I had either broken the toe or a small blood vessel in it

I limped downstairs

I slept with it elevated on a pillow

the next morning I went to see an athletic trainer friend 

I may have fractured a small bone in that toe

I may have ruptured a blood vessel

I could lose the toe nail

there is not a lot you can for about a broken toe

her advice:

watch it

ice it

wear good shoes

buddy tape it if you want to

so I have been more diligent about wearing tennis shoes with support

if I wear sandals I wear the ones with good support

and I don't like my toes to be "choked" so I haven't buddy taped it

three weeks later 

it still hurts 

so today I buddy taped it 

that helped until I took my shoe and the tape off tonight

without that extra support it is a whole lot more tender and sore

my heart is like that

it has suffered trauma-it is tender and it hurts

if it weren't for the good support of friends and family

if it wasn't for those who have walked alongside me

I would be in a whole lot more pain