one more goodbye

stormy

restless

aimless

wandering

unsettled

my emotions are strange and crazy since we finished our beach vacation

I knew the week was a vital part of grieving and healing 

I was as prepared as I could be for the travel, 

for being in the same area Bill and I enjoyed 

and the time with my family was even better than I hoped it would be

but today I am facing the truth that this trip held two goodbyes

and the second farewell, the one I am beginning to experience today 

is one I did not anticipate and I do not know how to "handle" it

I did not realize the purpose and the connection to Bill the planning gave me

tears, more tears and accepting this pain as part of the cost of loving deeply