walk by faith

when God calls

I have a choice

listen, obey and follow

or ignore, fight and refuse

I have walked both paths

and have found that to obey and follow, though often difficult,

is not nearly as uncomfortable as the regret of disobedience

I sit these days and wonder, 

"where Lord, where do You want me to serve"

I wait, not always patiently, to hear His direction 

I have spent what feels like a lifetime

asking for wisdom to know how best to minister to my family

I never expected to have a completely empty nest while I was young

it is unsettling to not have the boundaries I am accustomed to

even when it seems He is not answering, I will continue to pray

for wisdom and discernment

for boldness and courage 

for open eyes and ears and heart

for willingness to go or stay 

for strength to release 

for tenacity to hold on

"... for I know whom I have believed, and I am convinced that He is able to guard until that Day what has been entrusted to me."

2 Timothy 1:12